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To Invent is to Imagine

These are constructive times. My 5 year old son says 10 times a day, “Let’s make our own…worlds of fun, dessert, soap, Powerade, medicine, engine, flying airplane, rocket, parachute and much more…” He currently has an insatiable hunger for invention, science, process, and to tangibly work on recreating what he sees in the world around him, or something brand new. There is no limit to his imagination. I am amazed and in awe of how consistent this desire to create comes through everyday.

I wrote in our Christmas card that he likes to “create something out of nothing”. Components of “nothing” include:

-water bottles (Dasani, Deja Blue) he finds while crawling underneath bleachers or church pews- we can only hope people were done with these and they the owners of the bottles have no communicable disease.

-stringy things: bungee cords, string, yarn, floss, cords pulled out of hoodies, shoelaces

-boxes- shoe boxes, tea  boxes, plastic toy totes

-ingredients for greatness- food coloring, lemon juice, soy sauce, ice cubes, scissors for cutting up vegetables or other food items if creating=cooking

-from the outdoor category: sticks, sticks, sticks, dirt, mud, grass, rocks, trees

-constantly re-purposed actual items: Tinker Toys, Trio Blocks, cars, old pieces of car track, hangers, carabiners, Nerf guns, drumsticks, Kleenxes

Here are a couple recent inventions:

 

my invention

A creation from January 2012

the track

This is a track from way back- probably 2010

I wish I could say I’m a mom who has fully embraced all of this creative energy but the reality is, at times, I’m too pragmatic, I’ll worry about the mess, I’ll have nothing to say to encourage the idea because I know it actually isn’t possible.

Herein lies the problem- what do I do to balance my realism with his imagination? With my responsibility to do my work for work or around the house, and be his mom and keep him safe, while still allowing him to dream and create?  How do I uphold what I want to encourage and nurture and celebrate- the imagination of a child– and still air my struggles of not knowing how to embrace or enter into all of the inventions. I am so practical. He is so persistent. He has a drive and a limitless energy to MAKE and BUILD and I have a limited adult imagination and a control problem.

When I sat down with Eli’s “my invention” the other day to work on the engine, to tie knots he needed, and to witness a few launches, I was interested. I was proud of him. I was impressed with the intricacies of the bungee cord tie downs and the  floss weave (too small to see in the picture). I stifled most of my desires to ask what things were and whether or not it was working and to just watch him work and be there if needed me.

I still don’t know what to say when he says, “Let’s make our own amusement park” out of the dirt in the backyard. Luckily yesterday a neighbor girl showed up to enter in so I didn’t even have to say, “It’s not really possible” or “No you can’t turn on the hose”.

I preach imagination as necessary for our spiritual lives and relationship with an unfathomable God. I affirm child-like wonder and dreaming as an asset for adults in their vocations. And yet, when it’s happening in my home, I don’t know how to handle it, affirm it, or sometimes even, to not be annoyed by it.

I hope Eli can forgive me for the times I have shot down his ideas, for the ways I have limited his creative process on a Tuesday afternoon. I hope he remembers the times we did all cheer for the way a drumstick flew across the living room or a bouncy ball ricocheted off the opposite wall. I also hope he will never, ever lose the drive he has to imagine and persistently pursue what he might make if he works with what’s right in front of him.

 

 

 

 

Neighbors

We live in a half of a duplex. Which we bought 5 1/2 years ago when we were surprised to find out we were pregnant and needed some room to grow. We said goodbye to our one bedroom apartment- all 740 sq ft of it- and sought a clean and manageable abode. After touring many houses we could hardly afford and in no way wanted to buy due to their lack of baseboards, slanted and leaking roofs, or weird sauna rooms in the back of the basement, we bought this place.  A remodeled and totally updated half of a duplex. It’s been great. I love where we live geographically with our neighborhood and easy access to running routes, shops, restaurants, family, and “my” HyVee. What I don’t always love are my neighbors.

But, I want to love them and know that Jesus expects this of me. It’s in this realm that I feel most challenged and most in tune with what Jesus really does probably want from me- loving people that aren’t easy for me to love. I often have good intentions of loving them but almost always fail in executing those intentions. It’s deeper than my head. I’ve tried to think of all the reasons to have patience and peace towards them. This is not enough-I have to have a change in my heart, through my feelings, and in my behavior.

Yesterday I feel like I failed again. One neighbor is in 6th grade and leads the life of a much older teenager. My heart breaks for this kid. I’ve see him having to fight battles that he didn’t create on his own with “weapons” of angry words, and rebellion. He’s alone in tangible and intangible ways.

He was smoking on his deck yesterday while I was outside playing with my small children. When I finally decided to wander over there, instead of asking him how he was doing, I asked him WHY he was smoking. No matter that it was a joking voice, meant to be congenial and friendly but still convey the gravity of smoking as a 13 year old and that his body was worth more than that smoke. I left the interaction feeling bummed. I wish I would have said Hi instead of WHY.

More on the neighbors to come I’m sure. And hopefully there will be a difference in my head and heart that comes out through attitudes, feelings and behaviors by then.

Today becomes the Day

Excuses, fears, hesitations, confusion, undecided-ness, technological difficulties, ambivalence, ignorance, and resistance, and even laziness- but mostly excuses and fear- have kept this blog in my head for almost two years. Two years because that’s when I graduated from seminary with an MDiv and all the deadlines stopped. I won the Excellence in Writing award at my seminary graduation and then promptly stopped writing anything- except thank you notes and bi-monthly e-mails to the people who pray for me. Alas, the reality is I do want to write. I want to be a writer. That’s scary to say, well, actually to write.

So this is it. Today, Tuesday, I start a blog.  It’s the beginning of a new year but that’s not really why, it’s almost the end of January after all. Just today because last night I talked to my brother and this afternoon’s lunch cancelled. I thank my brother for the encouragement last night that it was time to stop talking and start typing. Also for his help in the soup that was the technological side of setting this up! Thanks to my husband too who is wonderful at slowing me down to help me think things through, but who also today said, “GO!”… and then “just don’t use a debit card to set up a monthly host site payment” . He knows far too well about the technological ambivalence/ignorance disease I have.

I’m calling it “A Prescription for Inscription”. Prescription because like a medical prescription, I feel I want this is to be some sort of a “therapeutic regimen, an assistive or corrective device, or other treatment”.  Inscription because that word means “a mark or line” and also means “the part of prescription that contains the names and amounts”. Both of those also speak to the point of this blog, which by no means is actually anything I can articulate today, which is to mark life with words and to explore the names and amounts, the details and the make-up, of the ingredients of what part of life gets marked here.

I have no idea the rules. Was I even supposed to explain the title? I want to set some rules for myself and to make promises to readers. Today I can only think of one: I promise to proofread.